Thirty-Two.

How Far Along: 32 weeks.  Seems like 10 years.

Total Weight Gain: I forgot to weigh myself this morning.  Honestly I really did.  I will try to remember tomorrow.  I'm kind of past the point of caring...I'm going to have a lot of work to do after baby comes so whether it's 38 pounds or 50 pounds I'm not sure it matters.

Maternity Clothes: No more maternity shopping unless I absolutely cannot fit into my clothes anymore.  I am crossing my fingers that most of what I own now will continue to fit through December.  Hopefully I have enough stretchy clothes that I'll have at least 5 things I can rotate at work so I'm not the girl who's wearing the same thing twice in one week.

Sleep: If I could sleep, it would be a miracle. 

Sam's Things:  I just don't have the energy tonight to take pictures and post them on here (my belly pic is going to be a day late too).  We have been running around doing stuff in the basement all night.  I might have more energy tomorrow to get some things posted!

Best Moment this Week: Our weekend was awesome.  Friday night we hung out with WM and KM and watched the UK game (accompanied by pizza and cookies/ice cream).  Saturday we picked up our glider and started on organizing our garage (gotta make room for all of the toys and strollers that are about to overtake our lives).  Saturday afternoon our softball girls threw us a shower and it was so great to see all of the girls.  I am going to miss them terribly next year!  Saturday night my mom and I bought a fabulously cheap bookcase at Target and put it together while Jake and my dad built shelves and hung cabinets in the garage.  Sunday we painted the bar room in the basement and finished organizing the garage.  It was nesting nation in our house this weekend and I loved it!

Movement: She is still moving around a lot.  I think sometimes she turns her head or sticks her butt out toward the front, because it feels like she is stretching my belly out and it becomes disfigured.  I still have yet to see any external movement though.  Jake's new favorite thing to do is push on my belly and try to figure out which body part he is feeling.  I'm sure she loves him cramping her style in there.

Food Cravings: I am still on food restriction because I feel so full after such a small amount of food that I have to watch myself.  On Sunday we went to Wendy's for lunch and when I told Jake my order he said "please take this in the nicest way possible, but are you sure you want all of that?"  I said yes, and then luckily they forgot my chicken nuggets.  I was full for 3 hours from a jr cheeseburger and a baked potato.  HA!

Symptoms: Next time I go more than 5 days without having a complete emotional breakdown I'll be sure to broadcast it.  I had such a miserable day at work on Friday that I came home and sobbed for a good 30 minutes in bed.  My pillow case is virtually ruined from all of the makeup stains, but I couldn't get out of bed to get a tissue instead of using my pillow case.  The funniest thing about all of these breakdowns is that I give myself a good cry and then when it's over, it's over and I move on and I'm perfectly fine.  I will be so glad to feel normal and not-hormonal again, whenever that may be.  Also, I have rancid gas (sorry Jake) and I can no longer comfortably put my shoes on.  Jake had to pull my boots off after church on Sunday because it's just too hard for me.  I am like a grunting groaning old man when I try to do anything involving any kind of physical activity.  I'm not trying to be rude, but I have a new appreciation for how morbidly obese people function on a daily basis.

What I Miss: I miss everything about not being pregnant.  I'm having one of those weeks where I can't pick just one thing because I have reached the point of being so sick of this I can hardly breathe.  The funny thing is I literally can't breathe.  Sam is crushing my diaphragm.  Today my back feels like I got hit by a semi-truck.  Most days it just feels like it got hit by a pick-up truck.  I miss the pre-pregnancy days where it felt like I got hit by a Smart Car.
 
What I am Looking Forward to:  Am I the only one who is already looking forward to Thanksgiving and my mom's stuffing?

Exercise: Maybe we have reached the point where I no longer care about exercise.  That's two weeks in a row with only 1 workout.  Yikes.  I am going to try really hard to get motivated to do something this week.  We'll see how that goes.

Noteworthy Items:

-I showed my mom my belly last night and even she was skeeved out by how stretched my belly button is.  She was jumping around and squirming about it.  It was hysterical.  I am so glad that my mom hated being pregnant and turned out to be a great mom, it gives me hope.  It also gives me someone to commiserate with.

-My grandma told me last night to "enjoy the rest of my pregnancy while I can" and I said "what is there to enjoy".  I still feel like I'm in a limbo stage, but I hate being pregnant so much that I am really starting to lean toward no longer being in limbo and just ready to be a parent to a screaming newborn.  The fact that I can't sleep, I am in a dull pain pretty much all day from my back, and I'm already sick of not being able to breathe really does make me wonder how anyone has ever enjoyed this in their life!

-Before I got pregnant, I kept saying I was too selfish to be a parent.  I still kind of feel like I am (hello, I love shopping more than most things in this world and I'm still not sure I'm ready to devote my weekends to feedings and t-ball games instead of nice dinners and day-long tailgates).  My saving grace at this point is that I feel like I've already let go of some of those things.  I obviously haven't partied since April.  The fact that reasonably priced maternity clothes are some of the most heinous things on the planet has helped curb my shopping addiction.  I've had to limit my caffeine intake, make sure I'm not eating anything harmful to the babe, and given up some of my favorite workouts so I don't cause any harm to her.  I guess some Big Man upstairs knew what he was doing when he determined how we would bring new little people into this world.  He's currently training my selfish ass to hopefully be a good momma!

-I have always made a conscious effort to not stare when I see someone missing a limb, or in a wheelchair or with some other sort of physical attribute that doesn't look the same as "everyone else".  After being pregnant, I will certainly make sure I continue to make an effort, except I might try even harder.  I feel like everywhere I go I am on display for the world to view.  One of these times when I'm in a really bad mood I'm going to end up going off on some poor unsuspecting old lady who just wants to know about my baby.  But really people - I am still a human being - I'm just growing another one in my belly too.  I can't imagine what it must feel like to walk around looking "different" your whole life.  I have a new appreciation for everyone who doesn't fit other people's definition of normal.

-I'm going to end by saying I AM SO PUMPED THAT UK BASKETBALL HAS STARTED!!!  I have been feigning for some good sports since the Reds sucked up the postseason and now I finally have something to care about.  GO CATS!!!